Monday, 22 October 2012

The wind subsided

9.58am

Prayed to God this morning wanting to not miss the 8.52 train, but somehow the clock seemed to have just jumped a few notches and next thing i looked, was so late i couldn’t have made it to the 8.52. So I prayed hoping I won’t miss the 9.07am train. Got there in time, with spare time for breaky but I was feeling slightly a bit frustrated from missing it (my fault, entirely, i know... :S), so then waiting for train and listening to Lecrae, guess who I met at the train station? Auntie Stacey! Haven’t seen her in years, and she apparently went back to TW and then back to OZ, and now even her son (Eric?) is now going to church and serving. Going to this new church that is being established.

 

Had a chance to hear her speak about what’s been happening these few years, and she said one thing “when sometimes one doesn’t know what to do they will quarrel or argue but actually they are feeling helpless” – reminds me of when mum used to be in conflict with her, so now i understand what was actually happening... but after so many years, from our convo, u see her start to see outside of just herself, and see God’s heart and that she too needs to widen her heart. I’m thankful – God has taught this sister much. And even her son who refused to come to church so many years ago... is now at church. And Stacey never forgot mum – and how mum was nice to her back then...

 

Had a chance to grab the opportunity to share with her about the end times, and God’s eternal plan and His kingdom and now it will be established on the new earth – New Jerusalem from heaven. Also shared with her about how to walk God’s way and how demanding God is – you see her shy away – saying it is too hard... but I indicated that road to heaven is the narrow one, and few find it. Then I also shared how God’s righteousness is shared – so that we may not need to always be in such struggle – but rather we can wear the full armour of God and conquer. But I forgot to tell her to walk in according to the Holy Spirit – out of legalism and license. But did mention that once we were in the world and affected by it, but now with God’s topview we are over the circumstances. God was doing something in her... hopefully what was planted was good seed to replace the bad ones satan sowed before. And let’s see it grow.

 

Waiting for the train door to open, approaching Roma St station, I still felt a tiny little frustrated for missing the train and being late but not so frustrated anymore, cuz I see how God used this. So I didn’t mind so much anymore... I’ll have to skip lunch today to be able to get off work on time so that I can bring Ken around Brissy, but that’s ok. I bowed to God – He art God indeed.

 

So I got off at Roma Street, severely late for work, but still thankful that I’ve had bread (didn’t even have time to kraft-easy-cheese-spread it), but still thankful that I don’t just have any bread, I gots raisin bread!! Walking along the road, the wind started blowing in the opposite direction, just like this morning when i was running for the train... going closer to work. It was so strong, blew my bags to two sides of me, and felt it starting to push me off course too...  Feeling a little bugged, and felt as if it was something supernatural going against me this morning, I went – Lord, tell it to stop. In Jesus Christ’s Name I command you to go away. It kept blowing against me and didn’t stop, as if testing my faith to see if it will stop. Something questioned in me but I reprimanded it, telling it to just wait. And see which God is great. As I approached where the crossing was where it is usually the most windy, the wind got smaller, and smaller, till it was just a few whiffs here and there. I crossed to the other side – amused, then amused at my amusement – It was totally unbelievable, what just happened, but what’s more why am I so surprised? afterall, I did believe the unbelievable. The wind tried to get bigger, but as I crossed to another side (L shape had to cross twice....), was challenging it to see, and it was suppressed all the way, and I walked into the roller doors of Brisbane Square. God is God indeed, and the wind subsided. Check this glory.

 




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Tuesday, 16 October 2012

But because you said so...

17.10.2012
5.22am

Had a really weird dream last night...
that I was some sort of a teacher in somewhere, and something happened that because I was a Christian I was sacked/forced out subtly of my job. And then there was this male best friend, who pretended to be my best friend, but actually was the instigator of all these. All throughout I suspected that he was dodgy, and tried to keep my distance but because didn't want him to realise that I know, I still had to act as if nothing happened. Then after I lost my job and was last day or something about to leave, he came and asked me out ... and the weird thing was... he was satan.

I woke up aroused from the dream, and I had my cuddle pillow next to me. At that instant, it felt that Satan was this close, and inside it. I was bothered and alarmed and alerted. Immediately I woke up, and after sitting on my bed for a short while, I turned the lights on. There was tension in the air, I wondered if the unseen spiritual realm was having a battle, so I took out my Bible and read Genesis where it talked about Satan's entry to the world and the prophesy of his eventual doom. Then I turned to Revelation and read about him being binded up for 1000 years, then released momentarily, then finally chucked into hell and bounded and sealed -- reminding me that satan's power is not that great, and that a once-fellow angel with it can even tie it up by the power of Christ and His Holy Spirit at the decree of God the Father, doesn't need God to do it Himself. I put on the full armour (literally went through the list and remembering I got them and assuringly put them on) and said to whatever was there -- Get behind me, Satan, in the Name of Jesus Christ. I also pulled out my baptism and asked it -- Don't you know I am already dead and buried? And you witnessed it. At that moment I felt the tension ease, whatever it was, cowered and left.

Then I pulled out my new electric guitar -- i.e. my other "harp" -- because can't play the acoustic cuz too loud -- at around 4.45am, every1 was asleep. Then I also pulled out the GNLC hymn book 1 and played For This Purpose (我主基督已经显明)whose chorus is like Handel's Messiah, however it says -- Over sin, He has conquered, Hallelujah, He has conquered; over death -- victorious, Hallalujah, victorious. Over sickness He has triumphed, Hallelujah, He has triumphed -- Jesus reigns over all! (Song12, D major, Capo2 C if you want)

I reckon the weird dream also had a lot to do with that new song -- "Promise" i wrote in the previous post. I think the fact that it logs "us" -- how God and I are usually like, walking together. And because it was written with one of the purposes as adding to the hymn tracks that will be useful for equipping the church for persecution then I think that satan doesn't like it at all, and is trying to do something against it -- I've also had particular troubles in the process of making that video... more than usual.
Lyrics here ---- ("The struggles that we face, You put us through fire, You do this to prove -- that we're Your Real gold") --
a gold that can be filtered 7 times to make it this pure. And real gold-- I used a pic on the youtube vid that has two fluffy strong winter dogs (or wolfs?) running together, one in front of the other -- to symbolise that if we go through struggles like this, God can call us along to run with Him whenever He wants cuz we can keep up with Him -- we're His real gold in His heart in that way, kinda like... best friends whom you call out for an excursion or expedition, you know? And to prove that -- i.e. to prove like He did Job -- to prove to those around and especially to the angels. Afterall, we are going to rule over them one day and God needs to appease their hearts and minds, to convince them it is ok -- that if they submit/subject to us it will be ok cuz we will subject to God. And afterall, there is also this bad angel who needs a lot more convincing than the rest... and to prove that Christ's way is right rather than his (satan, btw, just in case the reader hasn't realised..).
And what's more, every time I sing that bit of the song I remember those in Vietnam and worldwide like Pao who are facing persecution, imprisonment, torture and execution, and I consequently pray for them that God would make them strong and worthy.


And "sainou wa ima -- sou ka? Kitto kaeru so sa! Mitasu tame ni doryourku -- Our promise", basically saying that to enter the kingdom requires effort, and is the result of our life on this earth before/during our death, and we need to try to find talents and things that we can develop, invest them by developing them and then when we got them, we can return it to God like those with the 5000 and 2000 talents. Then we are faithful and we can reign.



Looking for things to fix to be right with God -- I have to fix my business spreadsheet. And then the other thing that came to mind was my relationship with Chao -- actually I don't furiously like him anymore, and quite successfully curbed what was my love for him, and in my head (and both of our heads, I'm sure..), we're like -- let's never ever get back together. And I still sustain that. However, it somehow felt like something to fix, so I told God, 夫子啊,我们一夜劳苦,并没有得着什么。但是就因为你说了,我就试一试吧。Trying to quote God the Bible, I tried to flip to the place where apostle Peter said that. But instead (cuz didn't know Bible well enough to know which gospel it came from) I flipped to John, at the last chapter and read it there, then read to a previously-highlighted bit in my Bible about Jesus asking Peter "do you love me" three times. And I cried -- because it is as if God was preparing me for the persecution ahead. I asked God -- will going through this put me at the top 3 on the left hand side in that V-shaped flight of birds (from a previous convo many years ago with God... i.e. in His army). Then I repeated 夫子啊,我们一夜劳苦,并没有得着什么。但是就因为你说了,我就试一试吧。

So I texted Chao with this message --

"Heya Chao, I'm serious about this, and not asking for a test -- would you go out with me?

It's not going to be easy but that's what makes it worth it.

Even if you're going interstate I'll wait for you."

I asked God twice -- “那我就真的send了哦?????????”
And after sending I still felt weird... 夫子啊,我们一夜劳苦,并没有得着什么。但是就因为你说了,我就真的试一试了哦..。With the "..just Anything, I suppose, you know??" kind of an attitude, not really expecting a yes, but I told God, if it's still not Chao then all I need is a simple no, and if he says no, I'll really wash my hands off this, and that He allows and I can log in my mind that this issue is fixed. But if it's a yes then I have to take Revelation 12 more seriously...

Who knows, aye?





Monday, 15 October 2012

CJ Wedding Cake Disaster

What a year it has been, between CJ's wedding cake disaster and now I've even managed to squeeze in an actuarial exam! As December edges in, I am reminded of the wedding cake incident last year, looking back, I can laugh and smile, all cuz God was there with me. I'm doing J&C's wedding cake this 2012 December, so be rest assured that the incident didn't leave me traumatized to the point where I'm forever scarred!

This year I'll be using satin ice -- as I got it before I realised that it is not as climatized to QLD weather as Bakels was (CJ cake used Bakels)... so perhaps more adventure awaits?

Anyways, here is a request from my fellow godly bro and sis from youtube to see the end result of the cake, so I thought I might post a few pics.

Recording of the disaster
Segment 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i34IL3yE4aw&feature=relmfu
Segment 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6v3OWBhkEI&feature=relmfu



The air bubbles.... that's the top... using a spatula, scraper and knife to get rid of all the buttercream on the top and on the sides

So sleepy, but just gotta keep going...

These two hymns encouraged me all night repeatedly.....

"faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of the things we do not see" and

"信是未曾看见,依然仰望十架,信是完全交托,深知主已掌权,我靠着那加给我力量的凡事都能做,或风浪或低谷,主平安在我心; 我靠着那加给我力量的凡事都能做,行在主的旨意, 我凡事都能做."

God carried me through all night... unsleepingly....
— with God.


my sis went to every single petrol station she could find... and finally came back with 3 small cartons of cream, which saved the cake! If this is not God's grace and ultimate providence, I don't know what it was. It's gonna be a loooonnnng night... and not even sure if it will work nicely under the fondant....— — with God.

and the second one... sis read me Psalm 121...

詩 篇 121

1 ( 上 行 之 詩 。 ) 我 要 向 山 舉 目 ; 我 的 幫 助 從 何 而 來 ?

2 我 的 幫 助 從 造 天 地 的 耶 和 華 而 來 。

3 他 必 不 叫 你 的 腳 搖 動 ; 保 護 你 的 必 不 打 盹 !

4 保 護 以 色 列 的 , 也 不 打 盹 也 不 睡 覺 。 (You won't be sleeping tonight... God will stay awake with you)

5 保 護 你 的 是 耶 和 華 ; 耶 和 華 在 你 右 邊 蔭 庇 你 。

6 白 日 , 太 陽 必 不 傷 你 ; 夜 間 , 月 亮 必 不 害 你 。

7 耶 和 華 要 保 護 你 , 免 受 一 切 的 災 害 ; 他 要 保 護 你 的 性 命 。

8 你 出 你 入 , 耶 和 華 要 保 護 你 , 從 今 時 直 到 永 遠 。
 — with God.



waxed paper for the quilt.

This is the top tier, I was really touched and comforted at how perfect the fondant turned out... I'm finally at this stage!!
 — at The Cake Office.

Punching the first cornerstone hole for the pearls -- reminded me of how Christ is the cornerstone, whom all our foundation is built on

have to give it some space and cut off more icing at the bottom to prevent air bubbles...


10 inch quilted as well...
the first cornerstone pearl hand painted in gold...

See the difference it makes


a family of cakes... back on Sat night, I could not see this picture at all..

Indeed, faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of the things in His Will that we do not yet see. And surely His faithfulness endures forever and His heart is kind...
 — with God


Now after dowelling it, I quickly put together all the elements of the cake to finalise the design

Four PM, and the delivery crew are arriving!! After design is finalised, I've got to pack all the logs and sunflowers into categorised boxes in accordance to their location on the cake.. and somehow also get myself ready and changed out of the buttercream and ganached clothes...


And took photos of each section so that I had something to refer to when i'm under pressure to assemble it all at the venue...

This top section means -- gentle interdependence, in each other and in God... symbolized by the sunflowers

Love the green leaves... looks so elegant... like the bride...


front shot


front middle

Now to disassemble it and take everything off the cake so that we can transport tier by tier




Cake finally done, at the venue. The people picking the cake up got lost on the way (GPS doesn't work cuz too many road works around my house), so instead of leaving at 4pm we left at around 4.45pm. We got there at about 5.30pm, and the pre dinner drinks for the reception starts at 6pm. Got into the venue, no time to chat, passed on the cake cutting instructions to the chef and got straight down to work. With the help of uncle Thomas and Ronnie, we assembled it as quickly as we could. Royal icing is holding up all the logs at the base tier, and the mid tiers have royal icing as well as skewers because RI takes too long to dry and things might fall if someone accidentally bumped into it.

A few shots for everyone who helped, as perHelen's request.

Meaning of this cake's design: base tier's two huge sunflowers stood for C and J each (the extra small flower on right was just cuz Shi Ge has something against symmetry so I guess the right one is him and left is J). The top flower in the middle is God. Together, these three flowers make a triangle (being mathematical her
e!), and as the two head upwards towards God, they get closer to each other. You can probably see the back view of this cake, the top tier's sunflower looks like one from the front, but actually there's another one just as big leaning back to back against it. This symbolises "two become one". Shi ge and J made the pretty CJ logo plaque themselves at the cake consultation session we had.


I'm sure God was beside too, posing...


@ the reception -- beautiful in a bouquet.
Just musing at the flower and the leaf... somehow, the heart shaped leaves from the wedding cake matched with this pointy edge from the real sunflower... unbelievable how it all worked out... it's as if God knew...

Just musing at the details in each petal of the sunflower... so intricate. Comparatively, the gumpaste sunflowers on the wedding cake was a very rough imitation of God's finger printed handiwork.
checking the leaves' veins to know for next time..

And the cake cut.


Glory be to God!!

October 22nd 2011
<Thanks for viewing!>


Promise -- composed Hymn


Went to youth group for the first time on Fri 12/10/2012 after the October actuarial exam (CT7). During Bible Study discussion, Penny, the lady sitting beside me, asked -- "how do you know God is real?" Different people gave different answers, but mine was -- I know He is real because I can't deny how He's shepherded and led me through my entire life. Woke up on Sat morning, thinking about Penny's question, and wanted to sing to God this song that had lyrics 'how can I deny Your grace?".... but... couldn't remember/ couldn't find one..... So I said to God -- How abouts I sing You a new song instead, and this was the answer. 

Writing process was a bit hard, hard to find the proper tune and I almost gave up a couple times, feeling tired (didn't get back from home group till 12am cuz had transport issues)... but asked God that if He wanted to hear a new song that He's gotta give me a little more strength and inspiration/tune....

Part of the song is written in Jap (singing in tongues!! Lolz! Jap is a foreign tongue to me indeed... thanks to: http://romaji.me/http://jisho.org/sentences?jap=sou&eng=). Used Jap because couldn't find English words that would express the meaning below in that little number of words in order to fit the tune, and also couldn't find words that rhymed which can sufficiently express the meaning. Tried my best to make the jap bit make sense, so hopefully even if it is broken Jap-language it would still make sense.... Thought about using Mandarin, but Mandarin sounds too harsh for such a song... And the tune for this song is not quite western, it’s slightly jap tuned too so…

So here it is ---- Promise ---  Promise -- Cover Video Clip on Youtube

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Promise                    C major
Sat 13/10/12                       12.43pm

(Verse)
Do You remember that day?
When I put myself on the offering plate?
Do You remember that time?
When we promised – “no matter what it takes?”

(Bridge)
Your quietness cause/s me to tremble
Your silence cause/s me to revere
Your whispering lets me know Your heart –
You are the Pearl worth my all – oh yea.

(Chorus)
(the) More that I/(we) know You,
for Your mercy I’m/(we’re) thankful –
Giving me/(us) all these Grace that I/(we) don’t deserve

The struggles that I/(we) face –
You put me/(us) through the fire –
You do this to prove that –
that I’m/(we’re) Your real gold

Which more do I/(we) want?
Which more do I/(we) have?
What else can I/(we) bring to account for that day?
才能に今 -- そうか?                                   (sainou ni ima – sou ka?)
(The talents I now have – are kind of like… do they really exist?)
きっと変える そう                                  (kitto kaeru sou sa!)
(But Surely it will turn into an affirmative yes (at the end))
満たす為に努力 --- Our Promise             (Mitasu tame ni doryoku – Our Promise)
(because I’m striving with all the effort I can, in order to fulfil – Our Promise)


(Jap bit google translation:
I see now the talent?
It is so surely change
effort to meet -- Our Promise)




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 And here's the version with the tune... pardon the beats. A full stop after a number means one octave lower.



Promise                    C major
Sat 13/10/12                       12.43pm

1    1        112           3       3---
Do You remember that day?
2          3 4     33         1   1      1 6.          2 -------
When I put myself on the offering plate?
1    1        112           5       3---
Do You remember that time?
2         3      43                 3    11         1      6.   2
That we promised – “no matter what it takes?”

(Bridge)
3          43         4             5  5    3-21
Your quietness cause/s me to tremble
3          43         4             5  5    3-21
Your silence cause/s me to revere
1         1231            4-   3    1-       1-       2-  
Your whispering lets me know Your heart –
1      1    1     1         3         1    2 – 1 7. 6. 5.
You are the Pearl worth my all – oh yea.

(Chorus)
       1            2    5          5        1
(the) More that I/(we) know You,
1      5.      12       5                   5    7.
for Your mercy I’m/(we’re) thankful –
71       7               6    3       3           1    1          1       5   5 --
Giving me/(us) all these Grace that I/(we) don’t deserve

5.            343            2          1
The struggles that I/(we) face –
5.        34                3            2    1-6. 5. --
You put me/(us)  through the fire –     
5.        34      3    2      1--
You do this to prove that –
6.       6                 6       6      65--
that I’m/(we’re) Your real gold







   1          1      2       5     5
Which more do I/(we) want?
   1---        1      2     5      5
Which more do I/(we) have?
7          1       7  6          3     3      1    1    1       5   5 --
What else can I/(we) bring to account for that day?
5   5   4  34  -- 3  1?
才能に今 -- そうか?
(The talents I now have – are kind of like… do they really exist?)
5   5   4  34  -- 3  1.
きっと変える そう
(But Surely it will turn into an affirmative yes (at the end))
5   5   4  34 3  13-32 -- 5.  7.  1-----
満たす為に努力 ---  Our Promise
(because I’m striving with all the effort I can, in order to fulfil – Our Promise)


(Jap bit google translation:
I see now the talent?
It is so surely change
effort to meet -- Our Promise)